yearn

I’m learning what it means to yearn. I’m at a place where I can literally feel deep calling unto deep. He is beginning to teach me again about the heartbeat of it all. And this is it…It’s about a heart cry! It isn’t about doing the right things, knowing the right scripture, or being esteemed. It’s about yearning! Mary of Bethany poured her life into a bottle and broke it at His feet. It was extravagant. She didn’t count the cost, she didn’t think about what she was giving up. She viewed everything of her life in light of this Man Jesus and of His words! It’s about a longing for and a reaching for in the heart! If we settle for anything less we’ve lost it all! It isn’t making Him a part of our life…it’s the very essence of who we are! We have missed simple adoration and devotion as His people. When is the last time we were truly hungry for Him? He wants to restore one corporate and collective cry of “COME LORD JESUS!” We must cry, we must contend, we must yearn again. I believe God is inviting us now to look our barrenness in the face and let Him restore the cry of our youth! He wants to restore the newness of our salvation. I remember when I first fell in love with Jesus, the first time I ever felt His touch...it changed me. There was desperation and a yearning that is unmatchable. I had to be alone with Him; I had to know the kiss of His Word! My heart literally ached for His presence. He is restoring this in His people again! He has been speaking to me out of Song of Solomon 3 where she is running through the streets asking if anyone had seen the one her heart loves, and she declares that when she finds Him she will not let Him go! That is my heart cry. My heart is searching Him out! I feel like my Spirit is fleeing though His mysteries, aching for Him to speak, holding on for dear life to every word He says to me. We must prize it above everything else. It must be prized above the newest and the most relevant things in Christianity. We have to let Him strike our pride and agenda to our very core so that we may be brought to nothing. It is in our nothingness that He comes! It is His desire that we access Heaven. It is His desire to provide us with the keys of the Kingdom so that we may open doors that no man can shut! These keys are not another trendy program or another technique; it’s about His Spirit within us colliding with His very heart that we may be equipped to change the world. It’s deep calling unto deep! When He comes He convicts, when He comes He teaches, when He comes power is released…the question is of when He comes! Intimacy has been lost in the Church. We have lost power in our churches because we have forgotten the keys of the Kingdom. We have to yearn. We must put our life into a bottle and waste it at His feet. We must spend ourselves on Him. My flesh and my Spirit are in a constant battle for my heart. My flesh tells me it's foolish to waste oneself so unsparingly on Him. But, just as I end most of my blogs, it comes down to this...I have to know Him. I will know Him.